It’s been over six months since I rejoined the firm that gave me the opportunity to work overseas and live independently.
While I am trying to manage the stress, long working hours and unreasonable colleagues, I know you are trying to tell me something lately which I havent figured out completely.
I hope you can help me identify the reason why I have been getting sick with upper respiratory infection more often than expected this year compared to previous years.
Although there are days I feel so tired doing meal prep and cooking daily, I still want to keep packing my healthy lunch box.
I have been taking supplements and probiotics daily for the past few years yet this year you made me question why I should continue doing this when the flu has struck me twice within the past 3.5 months. I am more mindful now of what I should take heart and what I should give my time to and I learned you crave for more time in nature – i.e. hiking to fully forget existing worries.
I hope to find the right functional medicine practitioner to help me nail the root cause of this recurring flu ordeal. I know healthy diet and supplements may not be enough and I promise to be more diligent learning to practice meditation daily.
I hope you can give me time to figure and sort things out and restore my health without falling into the traps of illness again.
Maybe, you are teaching me to be patient with myself and to persevere. I just hope this is nothing serious or deadly. I take it as you are just leading me to where I should be.
There are days when I still think to myself and wish I could study nutrition therapy to help myself and family if there is no chance to help others. I just dont dare do that now since it is completely different from my current field though you know for a fact that I have been reading and reading about it for many months after my sabbatical. Aside from functional medicine, it is a topic that keeps me alive and interested in contrast to developing any IT skills.
I know it sounds odd. People will probably roll their eyes on me. However, in time, I will have more clarity and that vision will turn into action.